I have to say for me this has been very enlightening. They talked a lot about our purpose in life and what it is to give. I think in today's day in age with social media and the other different media sources available that we see every day we end up being self consumed, almost narcissistic if you will. We are always wondering how people are going to see us, if they're going to like us, how popular our posts will be... excetera. But the reality of it is to have a purpose isn't in what we get or how we are going to get it. To have a purpose is to give. That's right... A purpose is something we do...something we provide to others, this life.
I also really like listening to TJOP (The Journey of Purpose) channel on YouTube. It has a lot of videos about what we can give back to the universe and finding our gifts. It's because when we give we will get back the same. It's that same old saying, you get what you give, you reap what you sow, treat others how you want to be treated or karma if you will.
For me it's hard because I was taught as a kid to always look at the richer people, the better off people, the people who had a better life than me and to judge and resent them. By the way this isn't an excuse. I am an adult now. My choices are mine.
However my parents taught me that it wasn't my fault I was destitute or didn't have as many options and that it was just life. They also taught me that I should resent the rich and the better off because they obviously didn't appreciate what they had and they also didn't understand what it was like to be us.
Took me years but even as a teenager I started to realize this was wrong. It wasn't that they were better than me and it wasn't their fault they had a better start in life than me and it didn't mean that they were better off either. You see the one thing my parents didn't teach me is that you get what you give in this life and if you're constantly giving judgement, negativity, resentment, anger, hate ... you are going to get it back. And that too can come in abundance.
However, there's a problem for me, anger is a hard habit to break and I'm still struggling with breaking my anger habits today. I watch my children and I can tell when I have fallen short because then they start behaving like me, getting really angry about things that there's no need to be angry over and so I'm listening to people like Tony Robbins, Dr. Wayne Dyer and Louise Hay and I'm realizing that I can change. I am embracing the concept of love again, something that used to be as natural as breathing when I was a child, and I choose to go through life with love instead of anger.
The best part is I will get it back. I get back in abundance and I want my kids to have that too. So I have started a new journey in my life. I personally plan on meditating more, I plan on making it conscious effort to tell myself everyday that my anger does not control me and that I choose to be loving and understanding and above all I choose to treat people better than they even think they deserve it themselves.
If I can teach my children this simple thing I could make their life completely different than mine. They will still have struggles, we all have struggles but they won't be the same as mine and for that I will be grateful. I know I cannot make their choices for them, all I can do is show them the mistakes I made and hopefully help them not make the same ones. A life devoid of love is a cold and lonely one. The fear of judgement, holding onto anger, trying to force life to be a certain way because that's just how it should be etc. I want none of those things for my children ... Or myself.
It took me over 30 years, 32 to be exact, to discover my purpose. I was naturally born to love, be understanding, compassionate and 100% accepting of people. This allowed people to confide in me my whole life. Telling me their secretes, desires and fears that normally they would never say out loud. I kept their confidence with ease because I knew how much they needed an ear to hear.
I never understood what a gift that was until later in life, after I had been conditioned to judge, hate, fear and mistrust everyone. But that was and still is my natural gift. I just need to unlearn all the conditioning I have had over the years.... And I have to say so far it's been awesome! I almost feel like myself again. But it's hard to do sometimes. I fall short a lot. But that's okay, because the love, understanding and acceptance I show others I first need to give myself.
I am not 12 anymore with a relatively simple and innocent past. I am now a grown woman. I have lied, I have stolen, I have mislead people for my own benefit... I have even broken people's confidence for entertainment. Things I am deeply ashamed of. But I can forgive myself. I can and I am not doing those things anymore. And I will break the hold anger has on me. For myself and those I love the most.
My purpose is to help others like I did so naturally as a child. By listening, loving them when they can't love themselves and showing them acceptance that so many in this world cannot find. I also am passionate about health and wellness so I share my journey and encourage others not to give up. I joined Plexus because I love the quality of their products and the real life changing results I have seen in others.
It's been amazing the wonderful changes that have happened so far in my new journey.
If you ever need to talk... Just want someone to listen... Just let me know. You are stronger than you think. I promise! And I am here to listen if you need it. As Louise Hay says... Life Loves You ;)
